Unbearable Agony: My Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It was a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.
The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.
This condition often begin with intense pain around a single eye that persists up to three hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.
Still, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical healing records suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.
In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.
A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.
National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of some individuals.
But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a